Wistful Wednesday

[image source: Kpop Wiki ] A story ~ GRWM [ GRWM means "get ready with me"] "The world may not be happy, but if you dream, there would be lots of things to laugh about." --Yuju ( link ) For my 21st birthday, I received a jar of complements as a gift from my friends and I still remember it like it was yesterday.  Opening its lid the first time was like playing the crack, sizzle, pop combo of carbonated soda--the anticipation sang so sweetly in my ears. As I swirled around the spaghetti strips of printer paper through my fingers, picked each complement out one by one and laid them on my carpet, I noticed that a great deal of them had something in common. I'm apparently seen as a very optimistic person, even if I have never thought of myself in that way before. Sitting on the floor of my living room that day, I tilted my head to the side and wondered: "Why would my friends think I'm a positive person?" In my head, I flittered down a list of possible ...

[image source: LOVE ANTENNA single ] A story ~ For Now I know, she goes through her own shit. I know, she has her own past. I know, she isn't perfect. But... She's perfect enough for me to ask Can I be her, Please? Before this,  I stared at myself in the mirror for an hour. Part of me wanted to punch the glass Until my knuckles bled; I was so disgusted with myself. I smile at you now Though I don't have the courage to admit it— That  no, it  wasn't jealousy before. It wasn’t. Neither her or I, Had our foot in the door. I swear, I would’ve seen it. And even if I had one now, It'd be indefinitely pointless to limp for you Again. You stay with me because of our past together; You walk to her because of your future, Together. The title, the status, the cliches-- They aren't the point. Even if you and I stapled our limbs as one— Even if both of us were tied to the same tree, You'd find some way to undo what we made, And fall right into her arms. How come I still ...