Wistful Wednesday

[image source:  GFriend Wiki ] A story ~ Water Flower It takes a really mature person to be able to say that they will still continue to be themselves even if someone else does not like them. I'm still kind of grappling with the fact that I think that I have met someone who doesn't understand me, or feels uncomfortable hanging around me, simply because we are just two really different people. I don't hate this person particularly, but I just don't know how to act around them because I can tell they don't know how to act around me. At first, it really decreased my self-confidence because I really want to get along with everyone that I meet, but if it makes them uncomfortable just because I am myself, then I can't do anything about it. When I looked myself in the mirror before, my confidence came from the fact that I knew that everyone I knew were comfortable around me in some shape or form. But now, I have to face myself and realize that even if I haven't don...

I'd be lying if I said I never thought about becoming a full-time blogger. There are multiple occasions where I've gotten so close to choosing to buy my own web domain--and now that I have a stable-ish job, I even have the money to do that without bugging my parents.  However, with influence comes the burden of marketing, maintaining an 'image', creating for the algorithm, and a whole slew of other things that doesn't make being famous sound fun to me. Becoming an individual who could be independent doing what they love is pretty tempting, that's true. Often, I do get a passing slither of envy watching Youtubers travel to cool places and have fun, while making money off of it. Then, I look at my own online career, and become disheartened by how it hasn't taken off. What's stopping me though from aiming to be like an influencer is that if I start making this my job, then I think that I probably won't love it anymore, and that means the dream of "...

[image source: Spotify ] A story ~ Intern Making friends at work is like making a cake. Each work environment requires a different approach, like how each type of cake requires a different approach. The first step is probably figuring out what type of cake, and flavour of cake is your workplace. The different ingredients are you and your co-workers. Some ingredients may work well  together to make a delicious cake, some ingredients don't. That is why, there is a recipe, so you know what ingredients to put together, how, and at what times to do that.  At work, the principle is the same.  There is something called workplace etiquette, and it's like an invisible recipe. Depending on what your co-worker is like, there are certain things you can say (at certain times) or not in order for you guys to have a "working" relationship that both of you are comfortable with. Some ingredients mix well together initially, like flour and egg, and some do not, like eggs and strawberri...

[image source: Luna Li - Topic ] A story ~ Flower (In Full Bloom) The job that I have now is kind of hard to explain to people who don't already have a background similar to it.  I take on many different roles and I have to switch between them constantly when I'm at work. That requires juggling a diverse amount of skills, which honestly, I'm still not completely sure what all of those are yet. I'm still getting used to the fact that I even have a job after graduating university. Despite  the fact that there is still a lot to learn, I like this job a lot and I see that it really changes people's lives. I admit, when I first went into this line of work, I expected a much more peaceful environment that was similar to my previous work. But nothing could have prepared me for what I would experience on this job. Actually, I'm pretty sure the interview was less about seeing if I was qualified for the job and more about seeing if I wanted it. Every day there are lows as...

  ∑ヾ(￣0￣;ﾉ  ...  " By royal decree, the sanctified day shall be May 25 26, 2022!" So, I just wanted to congratulate myself with my favourite pixel png gifs uwu~ ~ *meep* Happy Birthday to Me! (◕˽ ◕ ✿) ~ To whoever you are, thank you for semi-celebrating with me :) [5 Photos of the Month]

[image source: Genius ] A story ~ Riha [Disclaimer: this song is not about friendship, but I think of my friends when I hear this song for some reason] I know that very soon, I am going to lose a lot of my friends. We are now all going our separate ways, and I know that I am going on my own way too. Some of us may never see each other again, or barely see each other again. I can already see it coming. To be honest, I think I take a very peculiar standing when it comes to my sociability. I like to hang out at the edges of the party of life instead of being in the middle of it--not being alone, but not quite with others either. This place is one of the hardest place to gain the most friends, as if one is not introverted enough to hang with the loners, nor are they extraverted enough to party with others. It is weird both liking human gatherings, yet not joining the gathering at the same time--kind of like I am observing it from the edge. Are you seeing a pattern here? I used to feel more...